At times, the streams become conspirators in a kind of ritualized loneliness. I remember the winter my mother died: the house felt huge and echoing, and I could not bear silence. I opened a playlist and let the slow hum of other people’s nights come through—someone washing dishes, a radio announcer discussing trivial news, a comic’s muffled laugh. The background noise formed a scaffolding for my grief; it was not help so much as company. The streams had a way of making solitude less absolute: a multitude of small human pulses kept me from being wholly alone.
At times, the streams become conspirators in a kind of ritualized loneliness. I remember the winter my mother died: the house felt huge and echoing, and I could not bear silence. I opened a playlist and let the slow hum of other people’s nights come through—someone washing dishes, a radio announcer discussing trivial news, a comic’s muffled laugh. The background noise formed a scaffolding for my grief; it was not help so much as company. The streams had a way of making solitude less absolute: a multitude of small human pulses kept me from being wholly alone.